I wasn’t sure whether I was going to post this. But I set up this blog with the intention of using it to record all the cards I made — initially as a reference for myself — and while the card making has expanded into mixed media and other arts and crafts, there is still the underlying feeling that everything should be here. Even the stuff that doesn’t turn out quite right.
And this definitely didn’t turn out right. It was, to be blunt, a failure. But that’s okay. Not everything is perfect, in fact, in art, it’s hard to say that anything is perfect. I usually aim for “good enough”. And that’s not being self-deprecating, I absolutely love some of the stuff I make, but even then there’s usually something I would have done differently.
And there are benefits to showing off the things that don’t fit my initial vision of them.
For a start, I get to think about what went “wrong”. In this case, I got distracted by ideas that only served to make it more complicated and less organic. My initial aim was to create a large but natural-looking golden drip balanced by a pair of smaller drips on a plain black background. And then I started thinking. I thought I could make the drips more dimensional by forming them out of clay. I thought that I should make the drip line more dimensional to match the drip. I thought that modelling wire would do the job nicely. Then I had the idea to give the drips a clear centre (I had just got some plastic cabochons and was obviously looking for an opportunity to use them). I also thought the matt black would be a good idea when something with a bit of shine would probably have worked better.
And I also get to show that I’m not perfect. I know when I started making cards, I would see all those perfect creations with amazing colouring and there were moments when all that stopped being inspirational and instead started to look like an unachievable goal that wasn’t worth aiming for because that apparent skill level was so far away from where I was then.
Not everything works how I want it to. There are times when I have all the elements for a card and struggle to make them work together. I occasionally fumble Copic markers; most of the time I get away with it and don’t drop them on my work, but sometimes I do and I admit it and show that mistakes can be fixed or worked around. Sometimes I’m not happy with something, then I’ll leave it a day or two and realise what it needs to fix it.
But I haven’t managed to rescue this yet. I haven’t completely given up hope on it, it will be put away and maybe one day I’ll be inspired and find a way to turn it into something that I actually like. I can still take some positives away from it: I got some more practice in handling the paperclay and in creating a wonderful mess of splatter. And at least I have an understanding of why it went wrong.
- Prep & Stick:
Stuart Semple – coat
Stuart Semple – black 2.0
Stuart Semple – gold
- Paper & Fabric:
That’s Crafty white/greyboard
Fimo basic air dry clay
GESSO: Primed Creatives – Failure. What work or challenges have you failed at or turned into a disaster? What happened and what did you learn?